Saturday, January 28, 2012

Neglectful

So it has been far to long since I have written in this blog.  I thank all of you who keep checking in on me and butterfly.  I realize how neglectful I have been not only to the blog but to her as well.  To be honest I have had a really hard time focusing on anything and have had to focus a lot of attention on some new things.  But as I refocus my energies I NEED to focus on my little butterfly and my job as HOH.  I have found when I am a true Dom at home I succeed in my job as well.  I need to focus on being the best at both, cause it makes me happy and I feel more fulfilled.  So as a new month is upon us and the ever changing landscape of my life changes yet again I will do all the things I should have been doing long ago.  This lifestyle and my other blog make me who I am.  They make up a huge part of me. 

  So as I read her blog and realize that she is hurting without my guidance and support I feel terrible.  I feel like a failure.  But I know I can't let it get me down.  I know I can only pick up right now and do better.  I know I can't change the past, but I can make the future better.  So this post is kinda short but I wanted to check in and let you all know to expect more from me as we go forward.

J